So if you are an avid Apozitude reader you noticed there was a blog this week that came straight from my journal dated 12-14-08. Well upon reviewing that journal I stumbled across another journal entry that I’d like to share. It’s a little more jumbled, so I thought I’d rewrite it a little clearer for you here. I’ve written about this before, but not from this perspective.
Back in 2008 I was suffering with very bad back pain and going to great lengths to relieve my pain. Chiropractic treatments, acupuncture, yoga, Chinese herbs, muscle relaxers, hot baths, ice packs and smoking pot. Nothing seemed to be working for any prolonged length of time. I would find short periods of relief, but nothing lasting.
I had doubts about going to the doctor because I had been told, “Back pain is very mysterious and difficult to diagnose and treat”. I didn’t want to live out the rest of my life on pain killers and muscle relaxers. After crying and feeling like I was at the end of my rope I started asking myself, “What am I supposed to learn from this back pain?” and as if words floated into my mind on a soft pillowy cloud I thought. Acceptance is the key.
Quickly my mind asked another question, “The key? The key to what?”. Just as soft and airy as before I received this answer, Acceptance is the key to the lock. Again, eager to know my mind asked, “What lock?” The calm gentle voice answered, The lock is anything. Then as if knowledge was pouring over me I thought Acceptance is the key to the lock that holds the pain inside me. Well, now that I know what is the key is what do I do? A little firmer this time the voice said, Use it. Use the key “acceptance” to unlock the pain. Accept the pain to get beyond it.
I remember sitting in my chair crying and imagining myself embracing the tremendous pain I was feeling and I was not about to let go of that embrace until I felt certain I was ready to release it. I wanted to totally embrace it and totally accept it. I wanted nothing else to do with that pain. If it is true that acceptance is the key it seems then that acceptance is the key that sets you free. Free from fear. Free from pain. Freedom to move on. Freedom to courageously take positive action.
It is happening exactly the way I’ve been reading it would happen. It’s as if I woke up and KNOW the truths that I’ve been reading about. The truth is exactly where they have been claiming it would be; right there the whole time. All you have to do is open your eyes and remove the veil that covers everything that is real.
The veil is a filter. While you are under the veil, you can hear the truth, but can not know the truth until you see the truth. Once you see the truth you can live the truth. The funny thing about the veil is you don’t even realize you are wearing it, until one day you wake up and magically become aware. It seems you have heard something somewhere along the way about a veil, but you’ve never seen it. Therefore, you don’t even know it exists. You think you see things clearly because you hear all the words that point you in the direction of love, freedom and peace, but for some reason you are unable to attain these things in your life.
The abscence of desired circumstances in your life is because the true path is distorted by the veil. The veil is made of false pretense and until you care enough about how you feel, your life will remain in this realm of manifesting unwanted things. So, to recap, accpetance is the key. When you accept things as they are you release the resistance and create space for clarity to move in. There you go, that’s the secret. Now go practice and keep practicing until you’re done or don’t it’s ALL up to you.