Christmas day 2015, Keri, Marbles and I went for a walk at Gabriel Park. Not an uncommon activity, we take walks everyday and all over the place. This boy of ours is such a blessing in our lives. He’s full of love, sweetness, goofiness and LOTS (did I say TONS?) of energy. He always gets 2 walks/runs a day and we get bored going to the same places every time. So, we have many favorite spots and we can take off either on foot or in the car and temper his energy. It’s great for him to get so much exercise and we do it for him, but we also do it for ourselves. It gives us a bit of peace in our home.
We are creatures of habit and I’ve noticed a pattern with us. It goes a little something like this: Keri says, “We need to get this boy on a walk”. Then there’s me,… I’m almost 100% of the time on my computer working on a blog, a drawing for a blog or research for,… guess what… you’re right if you guessed, a blog. I usually groan a little and say something like, “Ok, just let me finish this thought, paragraph or drawing”. She always complies, because she’s wonderfully supportive of me and my passions. I think I’ll keep her. 🙂
Why do I always resist the walks??? I. don’t. know….
Actually, that’s not entirely true, I do know, but the clarity to express it just occurred to me. I usually resist the walks because it feels like an interruption in my creative process. I have a full time job Monday through Thursday. I know that doesn’t sound like a lot because most people work 5 or more days a week. I’m very grateful for the time I have to dedicate to my passion. However, the current reality is that I have 3 days to be my “writer/artist/blogger creative self”. I cherish this this time, therefore I do what I can to get the most I can out of it. How do I do that? Well, I get up early on the weekends, like real early, (anywhere from 3am – 6am) to work on my blog. I do it because I LOVE it!!! It doesn’t feel like work to me, ya know? Apozitude.com is my passion and my passion is expanding. I’m very grateful for expansion.
Why am I telling you all of this? I’m telling you because I wanted to share an “Ah-Ha” moment I had on this particular walk. We were nearing the end and as we walked along the water was trickling by (one of my ALL TIME favorite sounds) I took a deep breathe and I gazed up at the trees and sky and it was in that moment it occurred to me, I LOVE these walks.
I thought to myself, we’ve been walking trails like these for 17 years and I still love it. I love the simple pleasures of these walks. I love the smell of the dirt, the feel the moss that covers the trees, the myriad of contrasting colors that nature provides, the peaceful sound of the water mindlessly meandering by and many other wonderful things. I decided in that moment I’d let go of the resistance to the walks.
Yes, it’s true the walks interrupt my creative process, but the nourishment to my soul is worth it. I love spending time with my baby and our goofy energetic boy. To be completely honest, I find the nourishment these walks provide to my soul contributes greatly to my creative process.