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Be The Master

Hey, I’ve got a question for ya. Do you actually look at yourself in the mirror? I mean, most people check out how they’re presenting themselves to the outside world, but I’m talkin’ about something beyond grooming. Do you really look at yourself? Do you wonder? Do you spend time reflecting with yourself? Do you think about who you are, what value you provide yourself and your community, where you intend to guide yourself, why you’re here or how you fit in the world. When you look in the mirror do you see a person who you shower with love, acceptance and kindness or do you see a person you criticize, judge and pick apart little by little? Maybe you’re somewhere in the middle on the broad spectrum of self-love, but the reason I’m asking is for the purpose of raising awareness. Regardless of where you land on the spectrum of self-love please know the opposite of love is not hate, but indifference. The cool thing about indifference is there’s something you can do about it.

Check it out. So, there you are, listening to the complaints and/or judgements that keep repeating in your head about how you’re not good enough. Are you tired of beating yourself up with your own words? Well, my friend the time has come to STOP the madness of listening to yourself and begin talking to yourself. If you’re the slightest bit interested, take a look at your calendar and mark this day down as the day you decided to step up for yourself. Today is the day you’re going to take notice, when you find yourself listening to harsh or unkind words, you’re going to stop listening yourself and you’re going to start talking to yourself. It may sound like I’m encouraging you to take on the role of “that crazy who walks around talking to himself” but that’s not what I’m talking about here. I’m talking about catching yourself listening to the mindless chatter of your mind, taking an active role inside your mind and start talking to yourself in a kind and loving manner.

I started thinking of myself as a person in training and when I make mistakes, I gently say to myself, “That’s ok. You’re doing your best. Try again. You can do this.” The only difference between a master and a beginner is a master has failed more times than the beginner has ever tried. We tend to be so hard on ourselves, criticizing ourselves in our own minds over and over for not being good enough. By judging and doubting ourselves we’re slowly picking apart the greatest part of ourselves, our own self-worth. Our ability to love ourselves and to treat ourselves with kindness is the best gift we can give to ourselves. You have a choice to set your indifference aside and care enough about yourself to take action. Sometimes though, the act of taking action is more about doing less and spending more time BE-ing. Simply by sitting in silence the soul collects wisdom, because you quiet the incessant thoughts enough to allow spiritual guidance to flow.

© 2017 Angel Zamudio

Let the Cursor Blink, Wisdom Will Flow

As I mentioned yesterday, I recently came to a realization that I may be standing in my own way. What does this mean exactly? How can I stand in my own way? Well, it’s a funny thing how clarity is so crystal clear when peeking over into the life of someone else, but when evaluating your own situation it’s like your vision goes blurry and your mind just keeps drawing a blank.

In fact, I find myself drawing a complete blank right now as I sit here pondering this situation and watching the cursor on my screen blinking at me as if it’s paused in a yielding position just waiting for the wisdom to pour out onto the screen. Well, I’m sorry little blinking cursor, I have no wisdom to share at the moment.

All I know, is what I know and it’s really very simple. Everything I need, I have full access to when I allow myself the time and space to quiet the busyness and chatter of my mind. For the last several weeks I’ve been practicing the art of meditation and I’ve come to realize a quiet mind is an amazing luxury. It is my sincere intention to continue the practice of meditation in an effort to deepen my sense of connection and increase my level of peace and happiness.

I believe the continuation of this practice will inherently unveil the value in myself that I seek. Quieting my mind of clutter and distractions helps me to clearly see the value I have in the world. Like a pebble tossed into a still pond, it’s the kindness I share, the awareness I broaden and the lives I touch with genuine love that ripples beyond the point of contact and in a manner affects a far greater scope than I’m able to see.

Could it be? Just like that, I discovered my own value? My heart is saying, YES and it is 100% rewarding. Thank you for your patience blinking cursor, turns out the wisdom was ready to flow.

 

© 2017 Angel Zamudio

Unlimited Awesomeness

The honor of being asked to participate in a community project called Elevate-Awesome because the creator of the project views you as a Love Ambassador is  the epitome of success in my mind.

I was asked to participate on Saturday March 4th and the project was explained to me as a movement that’s creating a culture of kindness, partnership, and trust. In an effort to do so, these cards were made to share with people to elevate their awesomeness by acknowledging the awesomeness within them. When I accepted the invitation to participate, I was asked how many cards I wanted. Without placing any pressure on myself I allowed a number to come to mind. 500. I asked for 500 cards. Perfect! Arrangements were made for the cards to be delivered to me on Thursday March 9th.

The Universal Law of Attraction indicates that you attract into your life whatever you focus on. So, according to this Law it totally makes sense that if you participate in a project called elevate awesome, more awesomeness will be attracted into your life, right? Well, I have living proof.

I was so excited to be apart of this project I wrote a blog about it on Sunday March 5th and scheduled it to post on Tuesday March 7th. However, I also announced in the Apozitude Newsletter that posts on Mondays that I’d be sharing a blog about the project on Tuesday. I sent a text message to my friend sharing a link to the blog letting her know I shared a link to her site within the blog.  I shared in my excitement regarding my participation in her project in my newsletter as well. Guess what happened next!! She showed up at my office on Tuesday day morning with 500 of these #ilovehowawesomeyouare cards.

The coolest thing happened that day. I met a 15 year old transgender boy who just changed his name legally from female to male. I was so excited for him to be at this momentous point on his awesome and brave journey. I took the opportunity to share with him and his mom feelings I’ve had for a very long time and couldn’t quite figure out how to share. I still wonder, how do you go about sharing support of a person whose gender identity differs from the sex the doctor marked on their birth certificate and honoring their journey without drawing attention to them? I mean, I assume a person who lives a transgender experience wants nothing more than to blend into society as the gender they identify with internally, therefore what feels like a compliment or a form of support from me, may actually do the opposite by drawing attention to them. I still don’t know how to handle this in the future, but on this day it just felt right to congratulate him on his legal name.

Then it suddenly occurred to me, I have 500 #ilovehowawesomeyouare cards right here with me. I reached down, unwrapped one of the bundles and wrote a message of congratulations on the card and gave it to him. What better way to celebrate and elevate his awesomeness? I’m still beaming from the experience and that was only the first card I gave away. I decided to keep a miniature composition notebook with me as I hand out these cards, so I can keep track of who I give them to and to help me remember for the sharing aspect of the project. I’m also sharing pictures on Instagram with the hashtag #ilovehowawesomeyouare. My Instagram name is angel_apozitude if you’re interested in checking it out, but for now I close this blog with a feeling of expanded awesomeness and honor. See you in the real world. More on that subject later.

© 2017 Angel Zamudio

How to Elevate-Awesome

I can’t tell you how excited I am to report that I’ve been invited to participate in a community project. It’s so cool to me because when the project was described to me I thought, “That’s pretty much how I live my life”. It’s so cool to know there’s a group of people working on a project together that has a very similar mission as Apozitude. The realm of awareness is expanding and it’s an amazing thing.

When the project was explained to me it was clarified that I was being asked to participate because I’m a “love ambassador” and before I could even say thank you or ask for clarification regarding what this meant, it was explained that a love ambassador is a person who sees goodness is every person and actively discovers and acknowledges it. Wow! What an amazing compliment!!! I feel like this is the platform for my life, but for someone else to see this within me is so amazing to me. I’m so honored to be invited to participate and am super excited to share my experiences. Please check out the website to learn more. Feel free to inquire if you’re moved to participate and if you have questions, I’m happy to facilitate.

Let’s band together with our Apozitudes and Elevate Awesome!!!

© 2017 Angel Zamudio

What Do You Do for Valentine’s Day?

A question posed to me and a few others last week. As with everything, we all had our own opinions. As with everything, there was a wide range of opinions. The bottom line with Valentine’s Day and everything else, You have to do what FEELS best to you.

Who cares what anyone else does? If Valentine’s day is a day to celebrate love, do what feels like love to YOU.

Happy Valentine’s Day my friends!!!

© 2017 Angel Zamudio

Who You Are

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My heart is open and my eyes can see. Infinite love flows to me and through me. When I look at you, I see you with eyes of infinite love. I see you as your authentic self. I see beyond labels, flawed premises and defense mechanisms and I have an infinite love for you.

Strip us to our core of ALL labels and you’ll find that we’re far more alike than we are different.

Some would call our collective beings: humanity, but further stripped of labels than that, we are eternal spiritual beings. This aspect of ourselves is where I choose to focus, where the inherent good in everyone resides. I make this choice because it makes ME feel better to do so and if I can get one person to catch a glimpse of the value in this choice, I’ll take it because that my friend is expansion.

© 2017 Angel Zamudio

What’s the #1 Best Investment?

I’ve always been a HUGE sucker for just about all love songs. I remember when I was a kid, I loved hearing the words of love songs sung with such emotion. I could actually feel the heart break in the lyrics of unrequited love songs. I could feel the ache of desire when I heard those songs. I was a young girl with feelings of love and crushes for other girls. It was a very confusing time and I had no idea where I fit in, so those songs of unrequited love really resonated with me.

In 1987, Whitney Houston sang, I wanna dance with somebody, Somebody who loves me. Who was gonna dance with me or love me when nobody even knew who I loved? In 1991, Lisa Stansfield sang, Time to make you mine. It was the very beginning of my mind really opening to what I thought was the fullness of who I really was. I was certain that song was written for a woman in love with a woman. It wasn’t too long after this that I was bravely embarking on a journey of true love.

In 1995, I met the love of my life and there have been so many love songs through the years that apply to my relationship with Keri. In 2003, Alicia Keys sang, I ain’t got nothin’, if I ain’t got you, and true as that is for me, this is when I began to see that even more important than our devotion to each other was the devotion we held in our hearts for ourselves. I know it seems selfish to say that my relationship with myself is my #1 priority, but if you stop for a moment to give it some thought, you might begin to see that maintaining yourself as your #1 priority, only provides an opportunity for you to provide the very best of yourself to those closest to you.

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Loving yourself sends love out to everyone. Start right now.

Self love is your #1 investment in yourself. Yes, I sing love songs to myself. Listen to that Alicia Keys song again and imagine looking at yourself in the mirror.

© 2016 Angel Zamudio

Changing and yet, some how staying the same

I just want to be clear about this girlie side of myself that I have been exploring. I do love it. I really do, but I have to say it can be really frustrating sometimes, because at 44, it sorta’ feels like I should be more practiced at styling my hair and applying make up, which by the way I don’t do yet. I bought some make up and I’ve tried it a couple of times, but it feels very awkward. I don’t wanna walk out of the house looking like a three-year old who’s been playing with her mommy’s make up.

So, I try, every now and again with the eye shadow and then I shake my head at myself in the mirror and remove it. I feel I am doing well to fix my hair and wear a little lipstick. Even that frustrates me sometimes, because my hair,… Ugh, my hair. It’s getting longer and I just don’t know what I am going to do. Honestly, on the weekend I mostly wear a ball-cap. I’ve been trying scarves and pins and it just gets to be too much sometimes.

I appreciate the space Keri provides for me to explore. I appreciate her support and her efforts to help me come up with solutions to my hair troubles. She’s even purchased some girlie t-shirts for me. She’s very sweet. I appreciate her sense of humor when I come home with a 90’s hip hop hairdo. I appreciate my best friend, Shanna, helping me transform my awful 70’s feathered hair style into a 90’s hip hop look. I appreciate her encouraging me to get little flowers painted on my toe nails, which I wouldn’t have even thought to do and resisted at first, but now I love it.20140824-172235-62555113.jpg

What I appreciate most is the love I have around me and the fact that I am loved just the way I am whether I decide make-up is for me or not, I am who I am and no outward appearance is going to change that little factoid.

I find it interesting that as I am writing this and listening to my iTunes on shuffle that, Just the Way You Are by Billy Joel comes on. It is so fitting that I have placed it on repeat, but I think it’s important to emphasize that I didn’t choose it to begin with, it just came on in a random shuffle. Every single thing happens on purpose. I totally believe it.

I just want someone that I can talk to,
I want you just the way you are.

I said, I love you, and that’s forever.
This I promise from the heart.
I couldn’t love you any better,
I love you just the way you are.

Thank you. Love abounds.

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© 2016 Angel Zamudio

Why Should You Follow Apozitude?

Only you can answer that question, but let your answer be determined by the way you feel when you read it. I’ll share with you what I intend to do with this blog and my life as well. All I want to do is leave a little bit of love everywhere I go. It is my ultimate goal to be the love in any given moment. In order to maintain my desired position to BE the love of the moment I get to decide what that means to me.

Sometimes being the love of the moment means silently listening and creating a space for someone else to be who they need to be in a particular moment. Sometimes it means sharing a differing opinion for the purpose of expanded awareness. Sometimes it means standing up for myself and establishing a boundary and yet at other times it will mean allowing a different perspective to sink in and expand my awareness.

Regardless of what action I choose, in any given moment, it can certainly be achieved in a manner of respect for my fellow human being. It’s exactly like I used to explain to my son, You and I are different people. I’m certain there will be times in our lies when we’ll have different opinions based on our individual life experiences, however, that doesn’t mean I will love you less. One of our finest agreements was to agree to disagree when needed.

So, the question remains, why should you follow Apozitude? The answer is simple. Only, if YOU feel better in doing so.

© 2016 Angel Zamudio

 

The Healing Power of Forgiveness

A couple of weeks ago when I learned of the tragedy in Orlando, my heart was so heavy with sorrow and I had no idea what to do or say. I remained silent on the subject and reflected on the situation. Of course when a tragedy like this strikes, so many souls are touched with a myriad of feelings ranging from sadness and heartbreak to devastation and rage. We all feel a sense of helplessness because what’s done is done and can’t be undone. So what do we do? How do we deal with our feelings?

If we are close enough in proximity to where the tragedy occurred, we can offer our assistance to the families and friends of the victims. If we are further away, we can send whatever we are able in efforts to be supportive of the community. Regardless of our location or ability to make donations of support we must remember to turn our energies away from feelings of anger and dislike for the person or people responsible for the tragedy.

It can be very challenging for us as humans because we see with our human eyes. We, as humans, can’t see with the eyes of an eternal spiritual being, therefore we don’t know everything a person has dealt with or all the circumstances of the situation. When we take a moment to remember that we all came from the same place, that we’re all perfectly flawed humans and consider how lost and pained someone must feel to take actions such as these, it may soften our hearts a bit the the person behind the injustice.

An added benefit to softening our hearts from feelings of anger and hate is we feel better when we foster better feeling feelings within ourselves. Think about how you feel when you’re thinking about how much you dislike the actions of another. Consider the internal damage you do to yourself when you replay thoughts of others doing things you don’t like, does it feel good? Probably not.

My suggestion from above was to turn our energies away from anger and dislike and you may be wondering how do I do that when such horrible things are taking place in the world? Consider this, imagine how much better you will feel when you have love and forgiveness in your heart. Feel the relief in your body when you think about love and forgiveness. Imagine the feeling of love as an energy coming off your body, imagine people you run into through your day and how different they will feel running into you when you have love emanating from you. This is how we make the world a better place. Forgiveness heals.

Now get out there and be awesomely loving. You’ll like the way it feels. I promise.    IMG_2341.JPG