Tag Archives: Peace

BE YOU!!! Everyone Else is Taken

What’s the ONE thing you can count on in your life? Think about it for a moment. Whatever your answer is now, I guarantee you that with time your answer will change and the reason I know this to be true is because in all honesty, the #1 thing you really can count on is change. When you pause for a moment you begin to see how your “right now” experiences will create change in you from the person you were to the person you will become.

I know we live in a fast paced world of answers in the palm of your hand, but when you Google “sense of peace” and read what the internet claims the definition of this term to be, does it create a sense of peace within you. Even if I provided the definition for you here and you were able to read the meaning right this moment would a spark of clarity and peace ignite within you? It’s not very likely and the reason is because a sense of peace is not something you can download, upload or snap into reality. Peace is a way of life. Peace is clearing your mind of the clutter. Peace is being kind to yourself and others.

The other day during my guided meditation, I was instructed to focus on my breath. Focus on the very beginning of your breath where your awareness is the strongest. I always focus on the feeling of my breath coming and going through my nose. Focus on the beginning of your breath as it enters your body and without forcing your breath or changing it in any way, pay attention to the natural flow of your breath. Once you inhale, you’ll feel the middle of your breath just before this breath transitions to an exhalation there’s a brief pause. That pause is the middle of your breath and then when the breath leaves your body you come to the end of this breath. To help you focus on breathing, as you practice keeping a quiet mind you can say beginning, middle, end. I tried doing this. Beginning, middle, end, beginning, middle, end, beginning, middle, end. I quickly discovered for me this was changing the natural flow of my breathing, so I changed it to: b, m, e, b, m, e, b, m, e. After just a couple breaths I realize in a manner of speaking I was chanting; be me be me be me. I could feel a grin of satisfaction form on my face because this is what a sense of peace feels like.

Regardless of how I change over time and whatever mood I’m in at any given moment, I know I’m free to be me. Yes, I believe I’ll continue my practice of meditation. I love living aware.

© 2017 Angel Zamudio

Living Peace

People will wonder how you live such a happy life. People will want to know what you know. People will want to be like you. People will want to sit beside you at social gatherings.  People will doubt your sincerity. People will question your motives. People will dislike you for the connection you have because they haven’t quiet found yet. People will feel conflicted about how much they like you and yet how much you bug the shit out of them because you’re so damned happy all the time. All the while you’ll love them just the same, because you have been where they are before. You know how it feels to be lost. You know how it feels to be searching. You know how it feels to be grasping for connection. You know how it feels to try to fill the void within with anything you can get your hands on. Food, shopping, vacation, alcohol, drugs, sex and all providing nothing more than a false sense of self.

All my life I’ve searched for a sense of peace and I’ve found it many times. There are so many pathways to peace and various types of peace to be felt. Every level of peace I’ve achieved, I’m always amazed at how there’s another depth of peace and clarity to be achieved.

There’s a great sense of peace in knowing yourself. Knowing your value. Knowing your worth. What an amazing experience to feel and know your own sense of true connection. Honestly, there really are no words to describe exactly how it feels, but what I do know, is when you FEEL it, you KNOW it with complete certainty.

True connection to our authentic self is what provides a sense of peace that passes all understanding.

© 2017 Angel Zamudio

You Won’t Believe How Much Power YOU Have

During my morning meditation one morning last week a flash of clarity came to me. The really awesome news is I’m going to share it with you. The other news,… This is a story or revelation about me and my personal power. More good news, we ALL have this power and as you read this you can figure out a way for you to apply this flash of clarity to you and ignite your own personal power.

THE number one most important relationship in your life is between you and you. It really does not matter what anyone else says about you, thinks about you, or how they respond to you. YOU have complete and utter control over how you allow it to affect you or roll off of you like the nothing that it is.

When someone else is behaving in a manner that is displeasing to you it has nothing to do with you and everything to do with them. When someone says something about you that doesn’t feel like the truth to you, imagine their words are a purple cloud of ink dust floating in the air.IMG_3710

Now, stop for a moment and ask yourself, Do I want to walk up to that purple cloud of ink dust, wrap my arms around it and own it as if their words have that kind of power over me?

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Do I want to stand still and allow that purple cloud of ink dust to simply float away into the nothingness from which it originated?

Regardless of what someone else is saying or thinking about you, the only power it really has is the power you allow it to have. It’s easier to wrap your brain around it when you think about it like this,… Let’s pretend what ever “they” are saying about you turns out what “they” are claiming equates to the fact that you are purple. Now, this is simple, right? Because you know you’re not purple and it doesn’t make a bit of sense to argue this point with someone who believes and says something to the contrary, right? The fact that someone says YOU ARE purple doesn’t MAKE you purple,… So who cares. This simplistic example applies to anything anyone says or thinks about you that you know to be wrong. It may seem different, but it really is the same. It takes two people to play tug of war and your knowledge of yourself gives you the power to let go of the rope.

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Not you.

Now look who’s on their ass with a lap full of rope.

© 2016 Angel Zamudio

Peace be with you

There are no words to describe the amazing feeling of connection I’ve been feeling lately. Words are just words. I think I usually do a pretty good job of selecting a good group of words to string together to describe how I feel, but,…. can anyone really know or understand the feeling of clarity in another person?

I guess there really is no certain way to know if anyone else can FEEL the peace of MY knowing. It seems reasonable that we can only FEEL the peace of our own knowing and clarity. Right?

Otherwise, we’d be living a totally different reality. Right? Oh well,… I’m grateful for the clarity I know and my hope of hopes is that by living and sharing my own truth and clarity that it will assist others in finding their own truth and clarity.

That boy of mine, I sure do love him.

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Garrison is probably about 6 years old in this picture.

Look at that face. As far as I’m concerned you could crop me right out of this picture, not that I think it’s a bad picture of me. I just I love Garrison’s expression in this picture. His eyes are so dark and intense and the way he’s holding his mouth is so cute. It’s cute to me because I remember the feelings associated with that expression. We’ve always had fun together.

When Garrison was about 2 maybe 2.5 he used to growl and say to me, “I’m Garrison Tiiigeeerrr” with a hint of growl in his voice. His name is actually Garrison Tyler, so it made this expression so adorable. I miss those days, but I’m very grateful to have such a wonderfully caring and compassionate adult son. He’s grown into such an amazing adult person. I am so proud of him.

Those eyes and that smile allow me to feel the joy of this being’s soul and it pleases me greatly. Screen Shot 2016-02-17 at 7.10.49 AMThank you Garrison for being an amazing human being. I’m so grateful to know your sweet spirit.

 

Adventures in Life

Over this last weekend Keri and I were invited to go on a snowshoeing adventure up on Mt. Hood. Some friends of ours rented a cabin right on the Salmon River where we planned on staying for the night. We had a breath taking view of the river through some moss covered trees and were surrounded by ferns and beautiful plants.IMG_0145

We arrived on Saturday morning around 10am and it was simply a gorgeous day. One of the most beautiful days I’ve seen. Perhaps it was just a regular day like any other, but it seemed extraordinary to me because I was truly connected to the eternal creative spirit. I stood in this one spot next to the river where I could feel the warmth of the sun and all the simple beauties around me. I saw sunlight glistening on the fibers of a spider web. I saw sunlight shining on the motion of the river flowing by. I heard the rhythmic hypnotic flowing of the river and I felt life flowing in and out of me with every breath I took.IMG_0148

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Adventures in Meditation

As I stood there gazing up at the beautiful blue sky and the contrast of colors I took a few pictures. I was thinking about the snowshoeing adventure we were about to embark upon and how fun it was going be. I’d never been snowshoeing, so I really didn’t know what to expect. I thought about how distracting adventures can be, because sometimes when you’re so busy with activity it makes it more challenging to be quiet and just BE with yourself. I took this picture of a fern and posted it to Facebook with the comment, Adventures in meditation. The reasoning behind the picture and the comment was to serve as a reminder to write this blog.

If you think about it there really is adventure in meditation because when you take the time to sit with yourself and really get to know yourself, you learn how to deal with things that come up in life. When you know yourself so well that you know what you’re willing to put up with and where you ultimately draw the line it makes life so much more enjoyable. It’s a joy to live life.

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We had a blast.

I loved that time I spent by myself next to the river. I intentionally stood out there in the beauty of the day soaking up the connection to the bigger part of myself, the eternal spiritual part of myself and I felt the connection. It was an amazing time and I loved every minute of it. When it was time to head out for the snowshoeing I was ready. I was connected to nature and to myself. I think that time by the river made the adventure of snowshoeing much more enjoyable.

 

Peace, Tranquility and Relief

The day that I’m typing out this blog is Sunday Jan. 10, 2016. I started my day today later than usual. I first woke up at 4am, which isn’t all that uncommon, but what was unusual was I didn’t feeeeel moved to get up and write or create. I didn’t question it, I simply went back to bed. I woke up again at 7am and after 3 more hours of sleep, I still didn’t feel moved to write or create. I did however feel a tightness in my lower back, which isn’t that uncommon when I’ve slept that late.

I thought I saw Keri stir about and I asked her if she was ready to get up and workout. Turns out she was still asleep and asked if I could give her 30 more minutes. Certainly, I didn’t realize she was still sleeping. So, I took Marbles out, came back in and started making coffee. I still wasn’t moved to write. This is unusual for me. I had zero blogs ready for this week, so I sat down at my keyboard and started to type because sometimes that works. I’m not sure how, but it sorta gets the creative juices flowing. Not the case this morning.

What an unusual day. As I was typing to get in the mood, I met with a bit of frustration and decided it wasn’t the time to write. I closed up my computer and said I’ll try this again later. I went on with my day. I had a pretty awesome day. I went to church with my best friend, Shanna and her family. The service was very moving for me, personal and touching. Then I went with Keri out to Washougal to take Marbles out to the farm where he plays a couple days a week.

While at the farm, we saw a litter of adorable 7 week old golden retriever puppies and I had a very sweet encounter with a beautiful horse. It was a very present, in the moment experience. On our way home the sun was shinning brightly in the big beautiful sky and as the river was flowing by the sunlight was dancing on the surface. I was noticing all the beauty around me. The sunlight hitting the red and white stripes of the American flag flapping in the wind. The sky was my favorite shade of blue and I felt a warm sense of peace.

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Rest In peace Barbara Mae Brown Williams

When I arrived at home I noticed I had a text message from my mom. During the time while I was feeling all these amazingly tranquil moments strung together like a beautiful tapestry my mom’s mother was moving through her transition of life. Jan. 10, 2016 was last last day of her life and the first day of her complete relief. I can honestly say that I’m happy for her relief and I’m happy this was an unusual, yet beautifully tranquil day for me personally.

 

 

A New View

It snowed today and I don’t usually like it when it snows. There’s just been an uneasiness and sense of uncertainty that comes with the snow. Will the schools close? Will they start late? If yes, what time? Is it safe to drive? If I try to make it to work will I arrive safely? Will it snow more through the day making it more challenging to get home? When I drive in the snow I can feel my back muscles tighten up. When I walk on the sidewalk in the snow I worry about slipping. Just so much uncertainty.

Today was the same and yet it was very different too. All those feelings came to me again. However, as I was walking with Keri and Marbles today, I noticed something I’ve seen a million times before, but a new thought occurred to me. I was looking down at the sidewalk to be mindful of my steps and as I walked, I saw all these other footprints in the snow of people that walked there before me. There were all different sizes and not just people prints, paw prints too. All of a sudden it occurred to me that the snow helps me to see that I’m not alone on my journey. I mean I know I have Keri and Marbles and I’m very grateful. I know that I’m very blessed with so much love around me, but sometimes when I’m dealing with challenges in life it feels like I’m the only person in the world. Frustrations and challenges in life can be so overwhelming sometimes. The snow provided a sense of clarity for me today.

Regardless of how isolated we might feel sometimes, we’re never alone on our journey. This feeling that occurred to me today while I was walking in the snow helped me get to a place of appreciation for the snow. If we can figure out a way to get to a place of appreciation with things and people in life that create uneasiness and uncertainty, well I guess we would have peace in our hearts wouldn’t we?

I’m happy to know that peace is possible and I will continue to strive for that sense of peace. That feeling of relief and ease is very important to me. I promise myself to lessen my focus on things and situations in life that create uneasiness and uncertainty because I care about the way that I feel. Therefore, I also promise myself to maintain my focus on things and situations that bring me joy and happiness.       IMG_9830

There’s Only One You

IMG_3102For every situation there are a multitude of solutions and there is NOT ONE right answer. Or is there? The reason I ask this question is because like I mentioned before, it’s true there are numerous solutions to any given situation or problem, but there is only ONE you and there is only ONE me and as we know, what might be right for you may not be right me. Therefore, even though there may be a multitude of solutions to a problem, there likely is only ONE that feels just exactly right for you. You can’t live your life trying to resolve your problems with other people’s solutions. That’s not being true to you.

I’m not saying that we can’t grow and change by any means. I’m a big proponent of stepping outside our comfort zones and trying new things, but it has to feel right. You know when something feels off and the effort you put into a solution goes all sideways. That’s a sign that it wasn’t authentically YOU. The good news is you can take that misstep and turn it into an opportunity to learn about yourself and know yourself a little bit better.

You’re an amazing person. You have all the right stuff to get to the resolution that feels right to you. The secret is stepping away from the emotions of the problem and focus on the facts. When your mind is cluttered with emotion it clogs up your clarity. So, my advice is to sit down with yourself and take a look at what really matters. Remember you’re with yourself, so you’re safe to be vulnerable and completely honest. Write about it in a journal. Writing is very therapeutic. I promise you this, when you’re consistently vulnerable and completely honest with yourself while setting your emotions aside, you’ll find the solutions you’re looking for and you’ll have peace in your heart.

A New Kind of Christmas Treat

      Wow!! Who can believe Christmas is less than two weeks away??? What a crazy time of year. This particular year it’s much less crazy for Keri and I because we made an agreement with each other to set a budget for us to replenish our savings account and pay off our credit card from all the expenses of the wedding/reception we had in October.

     This agreement includes forgoing Christmas gift exchange. We’ve spoken with everyone we would have exchanged gifts with and everyone has been understanding and supportive. We are so blessed to be surrounded by such loving and understanding family and friends.

What this looks like in our house is we still have gotten a few things for Marbles, our golden retriever, but all the pressure of shopping and finding the perfect gift for everyone is GONE. Zero shopping??? Ummm,… I think this could be a new tradition.

We haven’t gotten a christmas tree since our previous golden, Waffles, was a puppy. We talked it over with Garrison before we made the decision because at the time he was only 12 and guess what!!! He was totally fine with it!!! We do put up stockings and in the past have always done stocking stuffers, but this year we’ve super simplified our lives and I really like it.

It got me thinking though, because it is such a crazy time for most, I think it’s a great time of year to set aside some time for ourselves. We, as a society, are so busy trying to make the perfect Christmas happen for all our loved ones, we often burn ourselves out, which makes it more difficult to enjoy the holiday ourselves. Therefore, I’d like to suggest that everyone who reads this blog make an agreement with themselves. Take it for what it’s worth or leave it for another time, but I’d like to see each of you agree to carve out a little time for yourself. Yes, it is a time for giving, so why leave yourself out. Give yourself permission to take a warm relaxing soak, pamper yourself with some epsom salt and lavender bubble bath, give yourself a time out to read a good book, pamper yourself with a manicure or get a massage.

Make time for yourself. It’s important to create balance in your life. It’s important to give to yourself the time you need to replenish and restore so that you may be your best for your loved ones. IMG_3054